A good night turned on its head. His was upset, I could see that. The vein on his forehead threatening to explode and Lord knows if he grinded his teeth any harder they would've turned into sand.We sat at the table, Russian roulette style, pointing a gun of emotions to our heads and pulling the pain that is the trigger. Both of us gambling not only with our lives but our hearts as well. I knew all the practical things to do, all the right words to say yet I cant do or say them right.Next thing, in a spasm like jolt he said "run away with me"

"Run away with me to a place where the only worry we'd have is that we have none. A place where the sun is always shining bright. Where the skies are blue and when night falls, they offer the twinkle of endless stars. A place where the wind whispers sweet nothings into your ear each time it blows. A place where my kisses are all it takes to make your fears go away, where my sole purpose is to make you happy and your smile is the equivalent to the very air I breathe. This place is in my heart"

And I stared at him motionless...

He told me he loves me...

Again I just stared...

He put his arms around me...

"I'm afraid" was all I could say...

Although I haven't had a bad experience with love or relationships, I am afraid. I look at my friends their pain and the stress of dealing with cheating lovers and fighting their own temptations. Putting themselves second to their significant others, sometimes even holding back their development just for the sake of not making the other feel less of themselves. Yes, there is happiness too but isn't it usually short lived? People around me all walked into these relationships so self-aware but somewhere somehow that changed. That is so scary.

What about me? Am I ready for love? How will I know if I am? How  do I know  that this is right or wrong?

Photographers: Cazpix and Neil Acid